Hue..he..he..  The title of today’s article must have reminded you to one of Beatles’ song.  Well, to be honest, it is inspired by the song.  But my next story is true.   

After I finished my high school, I decided to start working.  But God had other plan.  Thanks to my aunts, I could join a one-year-secretarial executive class.  It is some kind of course.  I felt so lucky. I then worked very hard to finish the class successfully, and I did it.  I was the best student, with remarkable grade (well, it’s no hard to achieve actually.  Secretarial class is not such a complicated major) Being idled for a while (and felt like I’m the lamest girl ever during the time) I got hired by two small companies.  I prayed to God to give me better job at least by the beginning of 2005.  And Voila!  Seven months later Allah the Al Mighty answered it (precisely right on time!  What a Creator!)  I joined the pgn 0105 Brotherhood. So I got thirty new best friends, some obstacles on my road, tears, sweats, Goosebumps, shameful experience, a handsome soldier brother, pain, beautiful military songs, General Manger’s yelling, great photo shots and laughs.  Once again, I felt very lucky.  But it wasn’t a happy ever after story. 

There was a saying: ‘No Guts No Glory’ It’s sort of right.  If we wanted to reach something, we have to strive for it first.  There’s nothing come easy.  Even when it happens, I can assure you it won’t last forever.  So, being a secretary is not as simple as you think.  For the last one year, I’ve been through many things.  I don’t want you to consider me as a wimpy girl, because I’m totally not that kind of girl.  I’m strong.  I always press that statement on my brain.  But I don’t know…  Things are getting rougher lately.  It’s not that I become weaker.  Despite of all the strength I tried to build within me, I’m just a human.  I’m just a little girl that needs to work very (very, very, very) hard if I wanted to change the complicated system that has been made since forty one years ago.

Ever since I got in this business, they have been doing many things to me.  The company’s organization chart has made me have THREE bosses, which each one of them can instruct me anything at anytime.  They restrict me to wear anything that will make me look better (5 cm-above-my-knees-skirt for example) they wouldn’t accept my correction for the wrong grammar they use in letters, they made me work overtime without extra pay, they made me use my own money for the company’s sake, they forbid me to have lunch with my friends because they want me to make letters, they made me an expedition officer, they made me a-one-man-show event organizer and betrayed me in the end, they made me awake until 3 am in the morning so that made me sick and I have to spent 2 days in the hospital, they made me cross all over Jakarta to search for my boss and made him sign some documents, they made me have a super duper silly relationship with a bastard, they made me feel so shameful for my education background, they made me come to the office early in the morning (at seven am) and went home late at night (at 20.00 pm) with tired mind and feet, they made me separated from my family and friends, they made me had fights with friends, they made me cried silently in the middle of my rush hours, they made me so busy that I couldn’t come to a close relative’s wedding, they call me in my weekend days, they made me some kind of servant for them to bring things, they made me order some snacks for unimportant events, they made me sit right below the air conditioner at a meeting and make me cached cold at night, and finally, they made me feel so depressed so that I think I want to quit the fight.  Just rot in hell, you God-damn-Capitalization!!! L 

That man in Beatles’ song is so lucky.  After his hard day’s night, he found out his lady of his life at home that made him feel alright, while I’m left alone in my room, surrounded with silly dolls and uneducated TV shows. 

I truly realize that I should be thanking God for this opportunity I had.  But there are times when I feel so lame, so shallow.  I need some refreshment.  I need something that will make me re-charged.  Something that will cheer me up, and once again made me had smiles on my face (my friend in the next cubical often shouted at me ‘Smile Dhitta, smile!’ while trying to imitate my expression with his face so that made him looked totally funny.  What a psycho!) 

I tried many ways to encourage myself to make my social life better.  I tried to have a boy friend, but it ended up messy.  The problem is that I always fell for some kind of jack asses (never trust the looks, gals, just don’t!), while when it comes my time to have an opportunity with a guy who is nice, kind, romantic, caring, affectionate, and obviously loves me sincerely, I just hurt and dumped him (maaf ya, Woh.  There’s nothing wrong with you.  You’re just too skinny, that’s all So, HTS-an aja terus sama si bastard itu, dhi!  I also tried to look after my family more, especially my mother.  But my family and I separated for hundred kilos away.  It’s not good for me financially…   (Sebenernya ini bukan alasan yatz…  Tapi dhi Cuma pulang kalo run out of money doang seh   Bad girl, bad girl!)  Hobbies?  I love fishes, but they will just be dead instantly in my nurture, and I easily bored by books (except for an extremely nice books.  And it’s rare.  I often felt tricked by book, which all they got was nothing but an interesting title)  My main hobby actually lazed my self all day long, and it’s not such a good way to busied yourself since it will only make you woke up with a migraine.

But after some deep thinking process, ideas came suddenly!  And, after my Hard Day’s Nights, I WILL DO AND HAVE THESE IN MY LIFE:

1.     I’ll finish my collage for sure, majoring in management.  I might be ended up as Corporate Secretary of PGN.  Who knows???  I was about to take Law school before, but to see to subjects… Big No-No for me!  Cowardly Dhi!

2.     I’ll go to Japan.  My cousin and I once had a vow.  The two of us will go to Japan to see the festivals held there.  Maybe we’ll need to spend 1 year or more of staying in way to have the chance to see ALL OF them!!!  And maybe we got the opportunity to meet Takashi Sorimachi or Hideaki Takizawa or Hyde of L’arc en Ciel or even Mask Tuxedo and Sanji and Zorro and Killua Zaoldyeck there!   You never know when you got lucky, do you???  So let’s anticipate! And after we have enough of Japan, we’ll go Englandto see William.  What a great journey!!!

3.    I’ll buy my Mother a proper shelter.  And after I got married, she can stay with me, like what she always wanted…

4.     I’ll have a Mercedes Benz, no matter how old it is (it doesn’t matter because it will always looked beautiful in my eyes) I always think that Mercedes is human’s greatest creation (did we crate something?  Or we just compiled it one by one from the material shattered around us?  Kok jadi ga nyambung gene sehJ)

5.     Etc…  Etc…  (Just cut it right here, I’ll never have enough list…)

Please don’t laugh to read my wish list.  You can always chain others’ hands and feet so they can do nothing, but you’ll never restrain their God given freedom of thinking, imagining, dreaming and hoping, right??? J

As I see around me, I can see my other colleagues in the same condition as I do.  And they emotionally tell me like for the 100^th times, ‘I couldn’t’ stand it no more.  I’ll quit!!!’  Well dear friend, that decision of yours will never come out from my mouth (Maybe if I got better offer from other company, but to give up with present condition?  No way!)  They maybe have the power or authority or whatever that can make me feel down and sucked up and demoralized, but they will NEVER EVER take my pride and dignity away from me.  I won’t give up that easily.  As I always try to inspire my friends, I’ll stand up and fight!!!  Go Dhi, go!!!   

So, I am now thanking God for making me still have those dreams & hope inside of me that need to be reached & fulfill. I still got the rest of my life to make them come true.  My suggestion for those of you who are now feeling that you will never get through your hard day’s nights would be nothing but try to find out your interest and get busied by it, while at the same time solving your main problem at work wisely.  Cari akar permasalahannya, Say!!!  Then finish it, for it has made you troubled for all these times!!!  Brani ga?  Brani dung, hallowww…. We’re the AGENTS OF CHANGE, the PIONEERS!  We can make positive differences.  We can make it if we try!!!  Well, those ways worked for me, hope the same thing will happened to you too, gals!!! 

Hare gene feeling depressed with your bosses and your job???  It’s so last year, geto loch…  J

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