I was listening to this one of my favorite song of a lifetime by Faith Hill ‘This Kiss’, when my memory suddenly brought me back to the most terrifying, disgusting, and exciting experience of my life : My First Kiss :”)   Ehm … ehm …

Well I don’t know about you, guys, and I do understand that some of us don’t feel that comfort to tell it to others, especially in this kind of public media, but my first experience of kissing is totally rock my world.  Made it turned up side down, so that my heart went blurry and blind just in a blink of an eye.  Cool! 

I’ve been waiting almost my entire life for my first kiss.  Maybe in this new way of life era, which can allow a-7-year-old little girl saw everything in television, I (and maybe every other kid) got matured before my time.  Who’s to blame, though?  The tales about kissing are so beautiful and delightful.  Sleeping beauty and Snow White were awoken by kisses from their princes, the ugly frog turned back into his prince charming form with a soft kiss by his princess, and even Sailor Moon is kissed by Mask Tuxedo.  With the common definition of a form of showing your beloved one your feeling of affection/love/care, kissing has become something that is longing by every single kid in their adolescence time. 

The first cut maybe is the deepest.  Most of people remember their first time kissing for the rest of their life.  This is natural, actually.  It’s just like your any other first experience, like your first A on your test, your first night out, your first boyfriend, etc… etc…  The first kissing time will remain in your memory forever, no matter how the ones whom you do it with is no longer with you at the present.  It’s just too enchanting to be forgotten.  Too magical, too astonishing, too…  Well the point is, as any other people, I just can’t forget my first kissing experience. 

I recall, it was a very perfect night, like God has set it up just for me in a one package.  The party went great, and during the time, he held my hand, we shared stories, we laughed, we listening to good music, we danced, he gave me flowers, he gave chocolate, and the most important thing is, he told me that he loves me, and ask me to be more than just friends.  It’s already a PERFECT moment for me, actually.  But he has prepared something that is more Important than all the things that he did for me that night, THE KISS that he promised me (yeah, I know you are confused by the phrase ‘that he promised me.’  Well actually, he already asked me to do it nights before, but I just refused.  Maybe I wasn’t ready yet).  So, after a little interruption by one of his friend, there we were, behind the hall where the party held.  He bowed so he could reach me, and I stand on my toes so I could reach him, our lips were getting closer and closer, and VOILA!!!  I just got my first kiss, or my first kisses, i should say,  for we done not once :)’  Hue..he..he.. 

I remember by the time we were doing it, I felt this shivery all over my body.  He kissed me passionately so that I thought, ‘Oh God, what the hell is this guy doing to me?’  But his thick lips burning hot, that I just couldn’t resist them.  When it’s over, we hug to each other.  Then we went home.  We got back into our real life.  Busied by our own business.  Told how we miss each other.  Had some meetings.  Got into many fights.  Had some kisses with other guys (maybe he did the same thing)  But I can still feel that breathtaking moment when his lips kissing me until today.  Silly me… 

Well, I have told you my foolish experience.  How about yours?  It would be an interesting quotes, wouldn’t it?  And for you who hasn’t done it yet, be prepared!  (But I actually don’t think that anybody could be prepared enough for such a magical thing like that J)

PS : About the story I told you above, keep it as a secret, okay buddy?!

So this is me leaving you with a song from Faith Hill which will make you travel through time… 

THIS KISS – FAITH HILL

I don’t want another heartbreak  I don’t need another turn to cry, no
I don’t want to learn the hard way  Baby Hello, oh no, goodbye
But you got me like a rocket  Shooting straight across the sky…

It’s the way you love me  It’s a feeling like this–
It’s centrifugal motion It’s perpetual bliss.
It’s that pivotal moment It’s, uh, Impossible
This Kiss, This Kiss (Unstoppable) This Kiss, This Kiss

Cinderella said to Snow White How does love get so off course?, oh
All I wanted was a white knight With a good heart, soft touch, fast horse.
Ride me off into the sunset Baby, I’m forever yours

It’s the way you love me  It’s a feeling like this–
It’s centrifugal motion  It’s perpetual bliss.
It’s that pivotal moment It’s, uh, Unthinkable
This Kiss, This kiss (Unsinkable) This Kiss This Kiss

You can kiss me in the moonlight On the rooftop under the sky
You can kiss me with the windows open While the rain comes pouring inside
Kiss me in sweet slow motion Let’s let every thing slide
You got me floating, You got me flying

It’s the way you love me It’s a feeling like this–
It’s centrifugal motion It’s perpetual bliss.
It’s that pivotal moment It’s, uh, Subliminal
This Kiss, This Kiss (It’s Criminal) This Kiss, This Kiss

It’s the way you love me, baby

It’s the way you love me, darling

I just don’t get the way of our world thinking.  Just need some space to share my opinion against it…  Peace…

I just met this girl about a year ago, and I learned so much from her.  The first time you met her, you’ll be thinking that she is not like any ordinary girl.  In fact, if she doesn’t make any improvement in her life soon, you are assured that she’ll be ruined.  She’s not that pretty, boyish, short, need some weight lost, (very) talkative, sloppy, along with her abnormal way of thinking.  Not totally her fault, actually.  Maybe she is born to be annoying.  God has made her that way.  And she has no complaints.  But her friends & family do. 

Her (not to many) friends & family told her advices.  Lots of it.  They said, “you should change your ‘anti-social’ life style” or “come on girl, be more cooperative, that introvert habit of yours wouldn’t give you any good,”  or just a simple sentences like “you suck!” and “oh, behave.”  Sounds quite irritating, don’t it???

I won’t give you any description of her destructive behavior.  What I’m trying to say here is why does the society always judging someone, or any other poor girl like her, based on the common deep-rooted notion that they made themselves.  Well I think they’re the ones who are suck!

I’m not trying to change their beliefs.  Not a bit.  But what they do have to understand is that every single person is a unique creation.  Just because her/his unique side is opposite to what common people has, it doesn’t mean that they can ascertain/decide that those different minor population are wicked, immoral, or even sinful.  Ever heard a saying “lain padang, lain belalang”?  Correct me if I’m wrong, this is just a shallow description, but based on what I’ve read, the distinctive character of everyone formed by various influences.  They can be the family, the education taught, the surrounding, and to be exact, the DNA (which builds his original character), and many other X factors.  It is out of our control.  They’re not the ones who decide, from whom they are born, what knowledge their brain capacity can bear, or what culture they want to raised up in.  Beside, they also got something that should be appreciated like, what decision they made in life and what thought they got in mind.  You see, everyone has the right to be not the same as others.  Don’t try ban it, ‘cause it is God given gift for His every single creation.  You are not allowed.  It is outlawed.   

So, back to our girl mentioned in the beginning of this article, i think it’s criminal to tell her “you different from normal people, you are guilty. You’re out of the community.”  She can be as different as she can be, as long as she doesn’t hurt herself and those people around her. Yes, I’m talking to you, girl.  Keep up with your struggling.  Be free in everything you do, as long as you believe is true, and you already had a deep thinking and praying at it.  Ignore the people who are making fun of your faith.  They’re just jealous because they haven’t got the strong willingness to reach something like you do.  You are different, so do I, and everyone else.  And those differences make us BEAUTIFUL…

As one of my favorite singer told me,

‘Cause we are beautiful, no matter what they say,

Words can’t bring us down…

We are beautiful in every single way,

Yes, words can’t bring us down…

So don’t you let me down, today… 

Have a wonderful time in life, gurl!!!  I luv you all!!!

For those of you who are now in love or in any relation with Capricorn’s Girl(s), please feel free to read below article.  Read carefully, since it might be helpful.  Okay, what are you waiting for?  Enjoy J 

WANITA CAPRICORN

Wanita yang jangkung, langsing, dan tenang.  Begitu marah, ia akan sangat galak.  Ia akan dapat bekerja dengan lebih baik daripada beberapa pria, dan dia adalah wanita yang sangat percaya diri.  Menurut pendapatnya, wanita bukanlah sekedar bunga untuk penghias rumah atau kantor dan jelas bukan gender yang lemah yang membutuhkan pertolongan saja.

Ia suka mengendalikan dan menyembunyikan emosi diri yang lemah.  Ia tidak akan pernah mencoba untuk mengubah siapapun, dan ia akan berusaha menerima mereka apa adanya.  Jika ia tidak menyukai seseorang, maka ia tidak akan mengkritik atau memberi komentar, ia akan sama sekali tidak memperdulikan orang itu.

Ia benci bunga plastik dan bunga buatan karena hal itu terkesan tidak tulus.  Ia menyukai bunga hidup dan baunya.  Ia juga menyukai cowok yang memakai pewangi after shave.  Jika anda adalah tipe orang yang akan memakai jeans anda sampai sebulan, baru kemudian mencucinya, atau orang yang memakai sepatu lama, lebih baik anda melupakannya.

Ia mencintai musik dan alam, walaupun terkadang muncul juga kasus langka, (tidak menyukainya).  Ia suka berpiknik di alam bebas, maka jika anda tidak punya banyak waktu untuknya, anda lebih baik mengajaknya dalam perjalanan memancing.  Dia tidak sepencemburu wanita Leo atau Aquarisus, tetapi jangan pernah melintasi batas.

Lebih baik anda tidak melihat dia marah, terutama di depan publik dimana dia dapat merasa dipermalukan secara umum.  Ia suka berdandan dan memakai baju dengan sempurna dan sangat rapi, maka jangan pernah memaksa dia cepat-cepat melakukan hal ini.  Ia memiliki tujuan sendiri dalam hidupnya, dan tidak peduli apakan anda memiliki gelar doktor atau tidak, jika ia menganggap anda tidak cerdas, maka dia tidak peduli tentang anda sama sekali.

Ia suka bertemu dengan karakter orang cerdas, bukan karena sertifikat yang menyatakan bahwa ia cerdas.  Jika memang anda tidak mampu menunjukkan bahwa anda cerdas, lebih baik anda segera menyingkir pergi.  Ia tidak menyukai pemimpi yang membicarakan mengenai mimpinya, tetapi tidak pernah berusaha mewujudkan mimpinya.

Jangan pernah juga mengatakan kepadanya “semua orang melakukannya, maka kamu sebaiknya juga”, atau “rasanya lebih baik kamu lakukan, karena itu baik buat kamu”, karena ia hanya akan mau melakukan apa yang ia mau lakukan.  Ia adalah orang yang rapi, jadi jika kamar anda mirip kandang babi, jangan pernah ajak dia masuk ke dalam kamar anda.

Jika anda pergi kencan, cobalah tampil serapi dan sebersih mungkin, kuku juga bersih, atau kalau tidak, kencan itu akan menjadi kencan terakhir anda.  Ia dalah tipe cewek yang ‘cool’ dan tidak akan merengek-rengek, begitu menyenangkan di telinga anda.  Ia adalah tipe yang pelan tapi pasti.  Ia akan selalu menghormati dan menghargai anda dan tidak akan pernah membuat anda malu.

Jika ia mencintai anda, ia akan selalu membantu anda melakukan apapun yang anda lakukan.  Ia suka membantu orang tanpa pamrih.  Jika ia meminta anda melakukan sesuatu, dan anda tidak membantu, maka ia akan merasa sangat kecewa.  Ia memiliki harapan yang tinggi dan percaya diri yang tinggi, ia lebih mempercayai kemampuan diri dan kepercayaan dirinya daripada “keberuntungan”.

Jika istri anda adalah capricornus, maka anda akan memliki rumah yang indah dan nyaman, dan makanan enak.  Jika orang tua anda mengunjungi rumah anda, mereka akan merasa puas.  Ia adalah seorang 3 in 1, ibu, istri dan wanita rumah tangga yang sempurna, dan anda pun dapat mengatakan “bahagia selamanya”

Note :  Well, what do you think?  As a Capricorn Girl, I can  asure you that the

           article is 100 % true.  Remarkable, don’t it?  It sounds like song to

            my ears J  Capricorn Ladies Rule!!! 

In this present time, live a little girl named dhi

Feeling insecure, unwanted, unpretty, and unhappy ever since she was born, she decided to spend most of her time disguising her self from others

In doing so, she wearing her cheerful-friendly-cute-looking girl masquerade all the time

Harder and harder to breathe inside, she stucks between her extremely-different-to-each-other personality of Red Side and Blue Side, which have made her trapped in the crossroad of an answer of lifetime option

Hiding her tears which came out every night from  silent cries, she asked God in her pray : ‘God, why do i different?  Why can’t i be like one of them?  Why won’t people love me?  Why don’t they understand me?  When will you send me my savior?  This loneliness is killing me…Do you really do cherish me?  Do you really do look after me?’

Waiting hopefully to be answered in a very long journey of identity searching, she finally felt like her heart being widen, so that she found her sanctuary, and saying these loudly and clear :

‘Well, if God created me this way, God must have something in mind, then.  I’m unique, so what?  It actually fun!’

Being (very) tough, she stands up, pull her head up against the world

And telling herself, ‘I must be the luckiest girl ever, for having this blessing of strong believing in this complicated system that God has made for me.  I’m gonna make it, i’m gonna get all i want in life (and the life after) as long as i still have this great faith and the willingness inside of me…’

It’s definetely a big compromise for a girl like her, and it’s not easy also to have that understanding of accepting herself… But after a pretty rough life, she had the deal

So there she is, surrounded by happiness and warmth created of her own.

A little bit naughty, but trust me, she will do no harm

A little bit fragile, but believe me, she’s strong

Still the same obstinate girl, only happier

Enjoying the process , she is now a devilish who is hardly trying to change her bad attitude into an angel-like lady

She plans to be a Beautiful White, but it’s her next big Goal

For now, she just start from a very simply hard thing :

To be balanced

To be equal

to be purple

It’s her first destination…

Not feel so good today.  I wonder why… tapi dah berasa dari kemarin seh.  Maybe it’s because of my hunger.  Haven’t got my breakfast.  Heran, dari kemarin all of my colleagues pada terinspirasi untuk bawa their home made breakfast geto.  So here i am, left alone, with empty stomach in an extremely boring morning.

This morning ada orang noraks yang asking to be fetched up via cell phone.  Dengan kenyataan bahwa biasanya itu orang yang jemput dan bahwa kamar kami sebenarnya cuma dipisahkan oleh sebuah tembok aja, kedengarannya memang agak berlebihan.  Boros malah. Tapi latar belakang dya begitu mang dah ketahuan seh.  Dya baru beli nomor baru dari operator yang tarifnya lumayan murah.  Dan berhubung kami bernaung di bawah  operator yang sama, jadi dhitta dhe, yang menjadi kelinci percobaan untuk mengetahui berapa besaran pulsa, eh salah, talk time maksudnya, yang digunakan.  Tolong…

Well anyway, kayanya dah out of subject neh, ceritanya.  Tadi kan dhitta mo menginformasikan about today’s forecast :

First, kayanya in a not too distant future, i’ll be dumping someone dhe.  Abisnya he’s playing me around ever since i know him.  I told him to stop at about twice, but we ended up doing the same foolish things again and again.  Kan ngebetein.  Apalagi kalo mengutip super boring advices from my gals : ‘Dhitta, di setiap hubungan ga jelas itu selalu pihak cewe yang dirugikan.  So you better stop it now, gurl!’  Hallooooowwwwww….????  I’m like, 21 years old geto loh.  I already know which’s good or bad for me.  No matter how many times you told me that, it would effect nothing to me.  I’m dhitta ,the obstinate girl.  But i appreciate them.  They did it because they love me.  But my point was, i’d like to try my shots on him.  These kind of stuffs are things that are worth to try.  I’d like to know, can he love my sincerely?  Or does he just want my goodies?  For all these times, i tried to survive by that assumption.  I actually made it, until that night…

It was actually a fun nighty, we spent times together.  We shared stories, and sang, etc.  Then he finally said something which was hurting me so.  I smiled, but cried silently inside.  I finally realized that he will never consider me as his special one.   Never.  It’s just my imagination.  So i made my decision : From now on, i’ll never give him the opportunity to have me anymore.  Not a bit, you God damn creature!  I’ll make you suffer!  I swear to God that i will make you feel so bad, that you don’t have any guts to try to trick me again.  Who do you thing i am?  Your bitch?  Your one night stand chick?  Arrrrgggghhhhhh…..Fell my revenge!  I will haunt you for the rest of your entire life!  Remember that!  (Berlebihan bangget ga seh? :D)

Hufff.. What a realive! :)  Okay, then.  We can move to my next prediction.  But i think my other forecast would be less interesting.  I guess there would be no rain today.  I can assure you that, because i have bought my umbrella.  You see, everything happens up side down in my world (which will link to yours)  When i still have no device to protect me from raining, the day would be like raining cats and dogs.  But now that i already have one, the sun shines brightly almost everyday.  Biasalah, sentimental Wheater Man. 

Udah, kayanya itu aja dhe, ramalan hari ini.  Oh ya, sekalian ngingetin, kalo ntar malam akan ditayangkan film ‘Shallow Hal’ di salah satu channel tv swasta (cari aja sendiri yang mana)  Pasti dah pada nonton semua seh, tapi ga papa, itu film layak rerun bangget.  Ga rugi nonton lagi.  Percaya dhe.  Black Jack geto loh.

Sekian dari kami.  Thank you for reading this.  Dhitta Ayu Maulidya, Infinity Purple Sky Channel, reporting from the beloved Perusahaan Gas Negara…

PS : Jangan kapok liat blog dhitta ya?  I promise you lain kali article-nya akan lebih bermutu dari laporan cuaca kamuflase ini…  Hwakakak…. :D  Luv u all!!!